La Vie de Miccah Marie
my thoughts on life, love, faith, and motherhood
Day 5/31 Five Minute Free Writes: SHARE
While I’m still doing the 31 day challenge of writing for five minutes each day on a given prompt, today’s prompt is from the weekly Five Minute Friday. FMF is exactly what it sounds like – set a timer and write for five minutes on the given prompt.
Today’s Five Minute Friday Freewrite prompt is: SHARE
It’s so much easier to share that I was struggling with something in the past, than to divulge that I’m struggling in the moment. While I was in probably the second worst emotional funk of my life after my second baby was born, I felt like I couldn’t share it with my family. They’re so accustomed to seeing me happy and laughing, and the way I felt inside was the negative image of that persona. I had spoken to a family member a few months prior to my baby being born, and she had read a few of my posts online that were pretty heavy and dark, even for me. But they were honest about how I’d felt during the other rough period in my life, about fifteen years ago. “Be thankful for what you have. Don’t dwell on the past,” she told me. It made her sad to know how lonely, broke, and hopeless I once was. I’d always talked up the concerts and baseball games I was going to, and what I was doing at my job. I never shared with anyone how my life really was at that point. And then I felt shamed for sharing it in writing, even though it was retrospective. But guess what? Life is messy. Life is not always fireflies and s’mores and laughter. I’ve learned that when I share how life is in the present, I’m able to help others through the same trials, and also be encouraged by those who have been through it and came out on the other side.
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The MOPS blog article I wrote entitled Love Times Two
The Laughing Gateau
La Vie de Miccah Marie 
” I’ve learned that when I share how life is in the present, I’m able to help others through the same trials, and also be encouraged by those who have been through it and came out on the other side.”
Many times I feel like I am going to fall a part if I share my hurts, sadness, and heartbreaks. Most of the time though, it is in the sharing that I find relief.
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It’s so true! Often my mindset is that I don’t want to drag anyone down, but truly just talking (or writing!) is so therapeutic in itself, even if no solutions were created. Thank you for reading and commenting!
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I hear this. It’s tempting to only share once the darkness has passed, or once we’ve finally solved an issue. Emotional transparency over the hard stuff is… hard. I see pain and sadness in this post, and also the reaching for understanding. I’m right there with you. I’m often offered the contradiction of people being deeply uncomfortable with me when I’m hurting, while simultaneously asking if there’s anything they can do to help. It’s like an offer of help held in the same hand as a demand that I not burden them. At least, that’s what it sometimes feels like, on my end. Thank you for your brave vulnerability here.
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Gosh, that’s exactly it! At these points, I don’t even want to be around myself, much less burden anyone else. It’s really tough to be authentic, but perhaps equally as difficult finding people who allow you to be authentic. Thank you for your encouragement!
miccah
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